cheryl*

2009-02-14T23:09:00.001-08:00

seeing that it's my 21st and everything, and everyone's suppose to be hoohaawahoo about it, i've decided to blog again. gawd i just can't get the sarcasm out of me, can i?

anyways, i am really thankful all the stuff that everyone's got me and if i have not said thank you yet, here i am expressing my gratitude and appreciation for everything.

THANK YOU FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES :)

facebook pics are up, so stop saying that i take forever to upload photos.

2006-06-24T02:46:00.000-07:00

God above, You hold my world
I see in You, My life unfold
Your face that shines
This path of mine
With You i'll walk,
My friend and guide

Oh, what can i do to seal
This union i have with You?

You are the God who will save
Cling on to all that you say
And for always

You, covered my life with Your grace
Darkness You've turned into day
When You gave Your all away

truly, you find God in your circumstances. i'm beginning to find His peace that surpasses all understanding. even before anything happens, i just know that He is the God that will save :)

I WANNA GO TO CHURCH TONIGHT LA.

2006-06-14T09:32:00.000-07:00

i think i need a new ipod. there's simply NOT ENOUGH SPACE for my songgggss. ogay that was deliberate, not my typical unstoppable-finger syndrome.

anyhoos, YANIBUNNY I AM ABSOLUTELY SORRY BUT WE HAVE LIT LECT ON SAT EH? :D

besides this being an entry with no direction at all, i would like to establish the fact that i am feeling something that's at least close to 'happy' and that's something i haven't felt for a long time now. thank God for everything :) HWEI YOU ARE MY SAVIOUR in a non-Jesus manner heh.

in light of hwei's very thankful entry, i have to add that i totally agree with her on that. we are a bunch of blessed people and perhaps, fine not perhaps, definitely life itself is a gift from the Almighty that we have to be grateful for everyday.

i wanna buy so many books! but given the fact that i have a tonne and exponentially increasing pile of readings, i don't think its very wise to head to kino now. well i could, jes that i stand the chance of meandering into the depths of my bookcase instead of hibernating under the pile on my table. well, there's always the option of leaving them to rot till the mid yrs are over, but NAH i shan't take my chances.

well, compared to last year, i am definitely more composed than i was for the mid years. that is not to say that i am in any way more prepared than i was then. i guess i'm jes more lackadaisical about exams now. the whole 'its jes the mid years' thingy is getting to me, and i'm telling ya it is NOT GOOD. nopey nope no, not at all.

ogay so in lieu of my preparations for the exams, i have wasted about half an hour online and my sensitive cranium is yelling for me to get off this thing. i think its about to crack soon, so in the words of heidi klum,

Auf Wiedersehen!

p.s. joga bonita! PLEASE SUPPORT MY DEAR RONALDO AND RONALDHINO!

2006-06-11T02:09:00.000-07:00

moooooove over dunkin donuts, and make way for the krispykreme! :D:D:D after two weeks of anticipation, jon chua FINALLY brought my donuts! and he didn't disappoint alright. he bought 3 boxes for church ogay! and one box is specially for ME. all mine, me, mine, myself, moi, :D

FIVE I CONSUMED ON MY OWN.

and those were not even from my box. i walloped them in church. that means that whole box above is still 'intact' and to be consumed over the next week. i am officially crowned the donut queen. JON YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND FROM NOW ON. HAHA.

to complete this trigger happy entry, i shall let you guys peek at my timmy and gabriel <3<3

my gabby baby whose squeaks literally pierce the silence of the night. don't you think his fur is simply divine?

and my good ol' timmy boy that looks kinda scared here ha ha.

oh gosh, I LOVE MY DOGS.

2006-06-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

did you know that:
1. the usa spends $10 million on porn, the same amount they spend on foreign aid.
2. i think mahathir is entertaining. hurhur. go read today's papers man.
3. the average japanese woman is expected to live till 83, while the botswanan woman, 32.
4. the usa owes the un a debt of about 1 billion.

ha ha well interesting facts (besides no.2) that might change your perception of the world? i think no. 1 is jes so telling. althought i think singapore might jes be on her way there. after watching get real last night, i can't believe some men are jes so shameless to ask for 13 year old prostitutes. it really shouldn't be called get real, more like, get a life.

mathmathmath. i loooove yoooou.

2006-06-08T04:09:00.000-07:00

after watching city harvest's emerge conference online, i REALLY cannot hold back what i have to say. hello? the worship team looks like they stepped out of a rock concert? i mean ogay fine one or two is fine, if that's your personal style then no one can really blame you. but the WHOLE team? it's like all the previous services you're decked out in jackets and at least, decent clothes. and then now they're dressed in pseudo-rocker clothes. it's laughable, really. no offence, i have nothing against city harvest, but it's sooooo coordinated when the entire team (even ps kong hee mind you) looks like metellica or something. fine i'm exaggerating but it really is kinda too much for the people on the altar to look like that.

AND THEN i have to mention the missy elliot music?! may i emphasize, ?!?!?!?!?!?!?! last time it was jappy-esqe, and now you're trying to fit in with the times i see? like hip-hop sia, so cool man. gosh i feel embarrassed talking bout this too. the idea of being cool is fine, or at least trying to fit in with the times and showing that the church isnt a bunch of coo coos stuck in the past. but there are many better ways of doing that you know? ogay i'm not being impartial here because i personally feel that a church is a church, and the altar should be saved for things that have to do with GOD you know? that's why it's called an altar in the first place. trying to engage the non-christians with dancing is fine, but MISSY ELLIOT? i wonder if God has a particular liking for hip hop.

ok now that i have got everything i wanted to say off my chest, i feel better. christians, opinions?

2006-06-08T01:10:00.000-07:00

a few days ago i wanted to blog and i was preddy damn frustrated, so yeah that explains the rather exasperated tone? i wanted to publish it but then blogger came along and told me that there's something wrong with the server or watsoever. so i saved it in notepad, lame i know but i didnt want my ten minutes of typing to go to waste! so, here goes :

oh gawd, i feel terrible in every sense of the word. i shall echo yanibunny and say that 'i've been doing everything except studying' (i think it went something like that).
been really knackered for God knows what reasons, since it seems like i've not been doing much except eating, sleeping and watching tv. and today was like the worst day since the holidays started. i felt this nagging ennui in my body today and then it was like i couldn't do anything at all. hello, you know something's wrong when you cant even lie on the bed and stone. GOSSSSHHH I NEED A LIFE?

and you know the most pathetic thing was i couldn't even be bothered to get out of the house to get myself breakfast or lunch? so i waited till dinnertime when mom finally got me out of the house to have dinner. sheesh sometimes im amazed at my ability to jes let time slip through my fingers, right before my very eyes. seriously i think i can see it jes seeping away or something sigh.

need to get that ipod thingy so i can finally run without worrying that my ipod will drop out of my pocket. then i shall attend the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE which i am proud to say i have not partaken any of YET. there's nothing like retail theraphy you know, but hey i have limits ogay ;) and thennn i shall attempt to train my baby gabriel to sit and stay. timmy has to go for his medical check up soon and gabby's due for his second jab. so many things to doooooo. not to forget, mug too. i think i'll end up doing more peripheral stuff than mugging. such is the life of a cheryl.

so what can i say? this goes on for only another 5 months? and then it'll be g'day mate for me (i hope lar).

ogay, and so for today:

went to get a manicure yesterday to add some colour to my horribly insipid life. at least it wont feel so boring when all i stare at is paper and pens. tomorrow, i have a dinner party to attend and somehow i realised that my manicure is going to stick out like a sore thumb. i got nail art done lar, and now i bet i'll look like some AH LIAN at the party. whatever la not like i care what they think.

i'm determined not to step out of my house today, and at least do something vaguely decent. let me set this straight with myself, watching 3 dvds in less than a week is nothing close to productive. but you know i dont really regret it, because they were great movies. i know i know im like really behind time. i jes watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind TODAY ogay? hurhur no one wins me when it comes to being laggy.

AND CAN I GO ON ABOUT WHAT A WONDERFULLY ROMANTIC YET POIGNANT SHOW IT IS????? mymy i can't believed i missed out on this show for like more than a year? acccccks. and coincidentally i watched the constant garderner on monday, which also starred kate winslet. and damn i'm starting to like her acting. so vastly different in both shows, yet equally convincing. i like i likeeee.

oh and the truth about love is sad too. but it's kinda lame sometimes, its like love actually which happens to be my favourite show of all time. i'm such a sucker for romantic shows ughh. these are the times that i'm convinced i never wanna be a guy. i love being a girl for goodness sakes. i can cry at romantic movies and not get booed at. i get to have doors opened for me, driven around, and most of all, being the supposedly weaker sex can be a useful excuse most of the time >:D but then again, everything has a flipside doesn't it? :)

2006-05-27T06:15:00.000-07:00

he he gabriel is like outstretched on the floor, flat, looking very much like a carpet. shoot i wish i had my cam now! UGHH but if i move he'll wake up. ho ho i am jes the luckiest girl on earth to have the cutest dog (next to timmy) ever.

one more day till geog trip! AND I HAVENT PACKED. HOWHOWHOWHOW. there're like a gazillion things i wanna bring but its for only three days sheesh. im not exactly high maintenance, im jes 'hard to maintain' >:D

2006-05-25T23:46:00.000-07:00

happy happy days aplenty for me :) yesterday's soccer was like the most exciting match i've ever seen in my life. not that i've watched many but at least i watch the world cup la if that's even a convincing excuse. but truly, i've witnessed what they mean by anything can happen on the football field. sorreh my soccer terminology is like close to zilch so pardon my layman's terms.

ohoh! i got my favourite phone, like finally! preddypreddy things make me happy. gosh i am so superficial sometimes.

i'm kinda on a constant high recently, save for all the after-match sore throats and blurry eyes. well, life's taking a turn for the better what with geog trip (a.k.a SHOPPING), a new phone, new dog and NO SCHOOL. these are the times when i can say God is good, and hopefully when the going gets tough, i'd be able to say the same too. i think i really need to find my zest for God back. i havent really lost it, jes that i've been so caught up with all the rah rah recently i've kinda shut the door to God :( there's nothing better than turning on a worship album and jes closing your eyes, silently pouring out your inner thoughs to Abba father. it's the only time when you really feel loved, safe and transparent (in a good way, like no one's judging you). i cant wait for church camp laaaar. last year we were preparing to leave for church camp at this time, and this year its pushed back to eoy all because of the A level students. heh jes gotta love pastor for being so thoughtful. speaking of which, HWEI'S SMS FIASCO IS HILARIOUS :D:D:D:D

anyways, *HWEEHWEE: cheer up aight? u can always come and rant at me if ur like really upset about it. LOVE!!!*

ogay, peace out in a non poseurish manner. still gotta go for chaucer play later. im kinda excited though. he he.

she preyseth his pleying nat worth a bene ;)

2006-05-23T08:52:00.000-07:00

ooooh why is the blogging thing suddenly blue.

jon chua jes told me that there's krispykreme at the aussie airport (sydney, that is). my goodness, where should i start in trying to explain how sad life in singapore can get sometimes. :( nevermind i shall be expecting krispykremes in 2 weeks time!! you guys can start bribing me now :D best friends have priority!!

oh oh oh! jes now i watched singapore idol auditions. i know la im like really lagging but it was so dooper funneh. wassup man singapore. but its kinda nice to know that we're not such a boring country after all. there are colouful characters existing somewhere. he he i really wonder how those people have the cheek to come back for the second season when they got rejected during the first. it's like, you may call it determination, but sometimes enough is enough especially when talent-o-meter is like screaming ZERO.

2006-05-20T10:49:00.000-07:00

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY. i am done with the measure essay and it really is a load off my chest. call me a nerd, whatever. so i had the mood to go for da vinci code with mom after that. it was aight la but i guess some parts were rather unexplained. so if i hadn't read the book beforehand i'd prolly be boggled. and that was exactly how my mom was and it was kinda irritating when she kept asking me what was happening. but she paid for the tix so im kinda obliged to explain to her too.

yesterday was fantastic despite the bball girls losing to rj. i saw fang!! :):):) was for a very short while though but nevertheless special to me! dont know when i'm gonna see her again. and kattie was like mugging at home what's new. tsktsk. i reallyreally hope the soccer team wins or else our hopes of having a full day would be like erps. i know what's going through ur mind now cwah see hwee, but again, whatever :P my allegiance is with the full-day.

church tomorrow and hopefully hwei and cherlynn will be free in the afternoon. mom was annoying me jes now when i told her i didnt go for tuition this week. well, i didnt really do it on purpose. firstly, ms chow told me to cancel it because apparently her econs lesson takes precedence. and then mr lim didnt ask me if i wanted a make up lesson because usually he does so i jes presumed that he had a full schedule already. perhaps i could have taken more initiative but i didnt really have the mood for tuition too. :( and she keeps telling me that the exams are so near yet im so lackadaisical about everything. she doesnt really know the turmoil inside me when it comes to these things. hello, i cant sleep at night jes because i know i have tons of revision undone!! and she says i don't care sheesh.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. yup, that's basically how i feel now. despite knowing the consquences im gonna go ahead and go out tomorrow. despite knowing im being irresponsible, i'm still gonna go ahead and somehow convince myself that i'm smart enough to ignore one day of revision. :( i really don't know what to do sometimes. i think im that sort who live for the moment. oh God, i need help.

2006-05-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

i feel bleargh right now. because i am currently aimless and it's that feeling when you're like hovering in mid-air feeling nauseous yet the truth is that you feel like you're hovering. so that means you can't give excuses for not doing anything because your two feet are firmly planted on the ground (as in literally. figuratively, nah.) basically, i'm not in the best of moods nowadays. i'm telling you it's that measure essay. it's been nagging at the back of my head since last friday. honestly, i aint got any clue on how to start this one. whatever, i'll work it out somehow but i'm like feeling this frustration even before i start. heck i havent even started thinking and i feel frustrated already. i am such a nerd sometimes. i wish i could be one of those people who can seriously not give two hoots about homework and disregard what teachers think of them. in a twisted sense, i kinda admire them. life's much easier that way. mom tells me 'take it easy' and then i jes go on to think 'yeah right. you won't be saying that if i flunk'.

why does it always have to be me and my grades. i go about my daily life smiling and having fun but at the back of my mind its nagging, its always there like an omnipresent burden such that its almost tangible. then i try to stash it away but as i said its omnipresent so it jes haunts me. mom says im stressing myself out. dear mom, perhaps you would like to know that mr sayers tells me if i don't feel stressed i ought to be worried. yet somehow i don't really like what he tells us despite how much i like him as my teacher. you see, how is it normal now that feeling stressed is supposed to be your life? because feeling stressed brings along with it side effects. i can almost 'swear' (not because i'm unsure of what i'm feeling, but because i can't swear) that i feel jittery most of the time, if not ALL the time. fangsy tells me i get stressed really easily and i think she's damn right. ha ha see she's really my good friend. ARGH what am i doing writing all this. i probably sound neurotic. i think it's that book i've been reading. i'm starting to admire the main character Kafka for being able to jes let go of everything and on one fine day, decide that he's quitting school for good and he's going to be the strongest fifteen year old on the planet. ridiculous i know, but yet it's not like remotely impossible too. and that's what kills me. we do have a choice but we're carried away by expectations, and all of a sudden what you really want out of life fades into oblivion and we lose focus of what we set our eyes on. okay fine even when we're studying that happens too but we don't really give a damn right. because in the first place we, or at least i, don't really want to be in this situation. UGHHH. okay i feel like a complete idiot for ranting and this is such a long entry i need to end now. kudos to those who actually got to this sentence.

.thgin doog

2006-05-12T01:44:00.000-07:00

i'm bored, because for once i aint fussing over my dogs. gabriel's asleep and timmy's sitting at my feet (which stink) so i dont know why he can even stand being near my feet.

anyhoos, the great news this week : 'HISTORIANS' ARE GOING FOR THE GEOG TRIP! hur hur that sentence is a paradox in itself.

last night's choir concert was well, i don't know. can't really say i enjoyed it because half the time fang was trying to snooze on my shoulder and aston was on the other side complaining to me. LOL and when the audience actually shouted for an encore, aston let out a VERY LOUD 'NOOOOO!' quite embarrassing only. i myself was dead beat too so i couldnt really appreciate the concert. but kattie looked preddy yesterday! not that she isnt preddy on normal days la.

oh yall should see the amout of flowers kattie got. and our very interesting presents from candy empire. overall enjoyable night i guess because of my darling 3u-ers. actually jes fangsy, pet, kattie!, aston, raymond and cheng chung! jane, shu wen, wei lun, hong sheng and jia hao were good company too :) AND THEN it was ke'rayzae!!!!!! 'celebrated' rizki's birthday which was jes a happy birthday song after the concert. gosh really felt like the old times again. ho ho gonna see fangsy and aston next week again. stupid aston says that if vj even scores against rj, it'll be the second school to actually get a point out of them. whatever, the girls won rj anyways and DARLING CHAN MEI LIN was the HERO! my fellow pw-er, get well soon yah? <3<3<3

still thinking if i should go for SOV. firstly it's kinda costly and i really cant appreciate choir singing. especially after last night. but vj's choir's supposed to be really good so it'll be quite a waste if i've never heard them sing before in my almost 2 years there eh. even if i go, WITH WHO??? the bombos are all not going :(

okay i think my feet really stink so i'm gonna wash them. toodles.

2006-05-05T02:40:00.000-07:00

hurhur i've been so busy with my new doggie that i havent had any time for myself. by the way, his name's GABRIEL :D i dont care what u say i'm calling him that! :D ha ha i came online jes to tell the whole world that heh. so now that i've accomplished what ive come to do, BYE! :D

TIMMY AND GABRIEL <3<3<3<3

2006-05-01T08:21:00.000-07:00

IVE GOT A NEW DOG!!!! :D:D:D i thank God a million times and more for blessing me with so many things :) oh my oh my oh my he's so adorable and he's a cocker spaniel. u know when i laid my eyes on him i kinda decided that he's the one for me. even though i saw many colgis and pekingnese and shelties, heck i even saw huskies i jes knew that i had to have that cocker spaniel. and so now it's sleeping in my house and gosh the way he sleeps is sooo adorable. ogay if u notice i've been calling my new dog 'him' thats cuz i havent thought of a name yet. kinda decided on one but not really sure yet. so i shall tell yall when i've decided! :) and if ur wondering what happened to timmy, no he hasnt died (shame on u for thinking so). he's still up and jumping and still as loveable to me as ever. :D ogay ive inserted enough smilies to last a week :):):):):):) im THAT happy and im wishing i didnt have to go to sch tmw so i can stay at home with my doggies. GOSH I AM SO BLESSED :) THANK YOU LORD AMEN :)

2006-04-27T04:51:00.000-07:00

all i can say is, I HATE VJC SECURITY GUARDS.

2006-04-25T05:46:00.000-07:00

ho ho tomorrow's pink sports bra day for 54! :) hurhur thanks to sam and her bright idea. tsk the things we do.

anyways this is a shout out to my mentos. I MISS YOU :) so how was the mentos? hur hur betcha scared of them by now, major overdose huh. can't wait to see you soon! xoxo, much love!!!

2006-04-22T03:39:00.000-07:00

just last night, i had crazy plans to go on a major shopping spree. but then when i woke up this morning, i kinda reached some kind of an epiphany. i realised that all the clothes that i can ever buy will all eventually pass as 'outdated' and then what happens to them? they get stuck in my wardrobe never to see daylight again. so what's the use of buying more and more clothing when there ARE people starving and dying diseases of all sorts all over the world :( well that's how i currently feel. but then i wonder how i'll really react when i see something irresistable. boo.

wel yanibunny, it's not as if i have truckloads of cash, and the vouchers did help a lot you know. i prolly wouldnt have bought it if not for the twenty bucks off! :D nehmind lar u got your berms in the end right?? :)

2006-04-21T10:14:00.000-07:00

wanted to post more peektures yesterday but blogger was being a biatch so that explains the abrupt ending of yesterday's post. so now i shall continue! :D

dance night jes ended and I MUST SAY THAT I'M PROUD OF MY PHOONIEBABOONIE. HE IS HAWT STUFF i'm telling ya. shaking that booty and looking so edible in that black suit. HAH PHOONIE I WANT TO PINCH YOUR ASS LOLZ. no way u really think ur that cute ah :P

and so... the hottie that took our breath away <3<3<3

aiya a little blurred la. doesnt do our phoonie any justice at all. nevermind we know your hot can already la right.

THE FOUR OF US. it's been a ride, and i could even say its been a smooth ride. somehow we've always managed to keep it together, no quarrels or internal bitching whatsoever. and some would say that's too good to be true. but we'll show them what true means eh? anyways this was after chingy pulled a horrible face. dont let her face fool you she does the best funny faces. oh i could even bribe her with the pictures i have. i know i know, he's wearing make up HAHA. lookin preddy eh phoonie :P

with the sexaye mamasita cindy! jes like the 3a/4a days again :)

and finally the great choreographer JOY! with a lot a lot a lot of flowers from all the boys ;) ha ha what's new what's new?

so tomorrow's the second night and what i have to say to phoonie is dont stop shaking that booty :) WE LOVE YOU even when you kinda forced us to buy tickets HAHA. and even when you forced hwei to rush the posters and you didnt use them in the end. even when you ignore us for ur TKGS girls hurhur. nah, we know no one can replace us in your heart :D

2006-04-20T03:00:00.000-07:00

ex animo was aight but it was fantastic when it came to fang and ryan's performance! :D:D I MISS HER SO MUCH but i only got to talk to her for like half an hour the most? well 3U's SO MUCH FUN i miss them so much!! i miss everyone la sheesh. and rj hasn't changed much except for a few 'posters here and there' as mr ignatius chua puts it. i thought the PAC was kinda small, even vj's PT's bigger. well at least the school's so much nicer. i kinda lost my way lol that's how long i've not been there. prolly wont go there ever again unless i go for choir concert. dance banners were up and as usual its a big hooha over there.

well let's jes let the peektures do the talking.

ex animo! everyone thought it was 'amino' lol the science freaks they are.

my fangsy's performance! I LOVE MY MENTOS <3<3<3

1s03U the loves of my life! see the star of the night herself in the middle! HA HA jia hao's tiptoeing but he's still shorter than weilun! then there's raymond, cheng chung, JAYQUEK, fangsy, aston the 'HUNK', kattie, shuwen, moi and yi ling! :):):)

kattie, ryan twinnie and ahem, yes me. KAT you still look like a nerd! :P

with charmaine now gosh she looked damn different yesterday. and kattie with her silly grin as always lol. dont you jes feel like pinching my twin? oh btw we have the same birthday that's why we're 'twins' lol.

2006-04-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

you are the lover in my bed and the gun to my head.

2006-04-08T08:09:00.000-07:00

finally done with Angelo and Isabella. no more soliloquys for now :D and im also done with 3/4 of my math tutorials, and now i can safely say i really enjoy math much more than econs. which is a huge feat because i used to be a chow-ga-fan HAHA thanks hao jin for the inspiration.

IM GETTING MY TOP ON MONDAY! yesyes i know i said i'll stop shopping for now but hey you cant expect me to let my vouchers go to waste ehh. i bet u'd do the same thing if you were me so dont you look at me with those accusing eyes because you are who i am in some way or another. we are, after all, GIRLS.

you know, if you peeled away that layer of acquiscence, you'd be surprised to find a wellspring of contempt and annoyance. but for now i shall keep my composure and smile like i always do. i sound like a hypocrite, but then again, aren't we all one at some point of time in our lives?

yawn enough rhetoric for now. im tired of writing actually. been writing and reading so much recently. beloved's intriguing and all that stuff about the midde passage? it breaks my heart im telling you. so, last friday's lecture was the first lit lecture when i really absorbed whatever that was taught. ha ha as for the glass menagerie, Laura, you can continue amusing yourself with it.

im missing 3u so bad now it kinda hurts :( i think im like sethe, memories keep coming back to me and i don't really have any control over them. ah well at least i'm seeing them this friday! :)

I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE CRAZYYY. ha ha look at the difference between the toilets in rj and vj. that's what i call a world of difference. well well only a few more months in that...place and then i graduate! :) for now i shall love 54 and my bombos. which reminds me, are we still having a blog?

ogay too long an entry for my liking. im jes rambling on without making much sense and use of my time eh. YAWN church tomorrow and then it's chill out or shopping with the parentals. niters :)

2006-04-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

i've got nice curls now! its only for a day so that's kinda retarded but then my hairdresser did it for me for free so no loss incurred i guess. now im contemplating on getting permanent curls, jes that i look even more mature than i alr do. i love it though!

anyways i really cannot cannot stand how people can jes mouth off about how so and so and so is a whore/biatch whatever because she's had many boyfriends when they dont even know the person. like get a life, don't you have anything better to talk about sheesh.

as for the BOMBOs, cover girl is a whole different matter hurhur. i really am making a conscious effort to be nice to her ogay. i even helped her during lecture today so I AM NOT MEAN. get that!

on a sidenote, this is kinda late, but still

from left: neh, me, yani, chrystal, jasmine and chan! :D i lovelove a54. WHERE'S JOY AND MIMI??

music fest was boring, only risque and the camels were aight. but i thought the daniel band was classy in their own way, something u'd see at rouge outdoors. ha ha if i even got the name right. wasted 10 bucks. phoonie's and fangsy's concert coming up! i cant wait to see my fangsy again!! <3<3<3>

before i go, everyone listen to jasom mraz, MR A-Z :D:D:D!! im still sore about not getting concert tix though. right, toodles.

2006-03-27T08:25:00.000-08:00

hellooooooo there! great day today even though i'm like semi-asleep now. i was deliberating (oooh this is such a tyra banks word. "and now the judges shall deliberate on who shall continue towards being america's next top model. LOLZ.) on whether to proceed to tampines to get my shoes (oh thou art the love of my life!) or to go home and be a good girl. i decided on the latter which eventually proved futile. i shall explain later. and so i had my lunch in pasir ris UGHH after which i took a nice walk home. and then philene my really cute neighbour came over because she is, like i am, head over heels in loveeeee with timmy and jes had to come and see his cute like angelic apple dome of a face. AND THEN... i had the brilliant idea of watching a movie (mom was home at that time)! which will then enable me to buy my shoes too!!! HA HA am i brilliant or what. so all three of us ended up watching yours, mine and ours which is alright. typical 'cheaper by the dozen' plot but i must say dennis quaid is quite a looker for his age. crystal jaded for dinner and do i spot a trend here? last monday afternoon i had crystal jade for lunch and it was beef brisket noodles. today (whcih is conincidentally monday too) i had prawn noodles which was so-so too. but nonetheless a pleasant day lar. better than tuesdays. which reminds me there's third period tomorrow shite. ogay i gotta turn in now nighters.

2006-03-18T08:40:00.000-08:00

right now that i have substantially more things to blog about i shall attempt to log in a decent entry :) oh by the way the chilli crab was fantastico ;)

esplande jes now and had a huge dose of latina hotness (no not porn if this even vaguely sounds like it). I LOVE MOSAIC WHY IS IT ENDING TOMORROW BOO :( last week it was that singaporean indian guy with an italiano surname and today gosh everyone was like dancing. the latinos around were like shaking their asses really well, even those that would be called old aunties by us, in our context HAHA. well well next year will be better as i always say. i missed mraz's concert though and im still quite sad about it. i really have no idea why i didnt know about it until like a week before and tix were sold out.

i may finally cut my hair tomorrow if time permits. and then its off to buy school supplies and monday the humdrum of school will start setting in. soon enough u'll see more of the sporadic entries and my angsty I HATE VJC entries yadayada you get the picture. somehow march is passing by really fast we're like in the middle already. last two months seemed really slow moving to me. i guess this is where the speed picks up sigh.

anyways to those who have cts next week (i mean this in the most unvindictive manner), GOOD LUCK :):):) kick the sorry asses of those wretched...things. i'm sorry but if i used the word 'papers' it'll sound retarded because papers dont have asses to begin with.

ogay with this i shall hit the sack and if you dont see another entry for the next few weeks, oh i'm sure u'll go on with life. HAHA as if people check back to see if i've updated at all. (OH YOU MEAN YOU DO?? YOU LOW LIFERS!!!!! HAHA kiddin kiddin.)

2006-03-15T06:24:00.000-08:00

oh hi. i jes discovered i actually have a blog. too many things on my mind lately but thankfull cts are over. now i have better and more meaningful things to occupy myself with :)

daddy's buying back chilli crab later :/

ok i have nothing else to say already. gosh why did i even come online.

2006-02-23T21:11:00.000-08:00

quick update.

basically my life's been nothing short of stressful and tiring and i feel so screwed up right now because im trying to study but my eyes are smarting for God noes what reasons and my nose is running no stop. wow what a long sentence. it always happens to me! and my hair is annoying me big time because its wet and i cant pin it up UGHHHHHHHHHH. note to self: CUT HAIR AFTER CTS.

ok yawn. i hate blogging. so all i have to say now is hi bye, have a nice life.

2006-02-14T04:59:00.000-08:00

spread the looove everybodaye <3 (timmy says hi too.)

ho ho i have too cute classmates. really didnt expect them to go to such lengths. i love all the sweet liddle kitschy presents. gosh i feel terrible la i didnt prepare anything at all.

we finally found out who our angels are and stupid tart lied to me all along. i guessed correctly like eons ago and she was like WRONG. tsk. my angel's the sweetest girl la. yay new friend found! lol what a loser i am.

so i've finally trudged through about close to seven essays this term and there are 2 more becknoning. aye cts are friggin near!

anyways backtracking a little. my birthday was boring. save for the millions of thoughtful people who made me feel so loved with all the messages. i didnt expect so many, really. so if you guys are readin this, THANK YOU! LOVE!!!

2006-02-06T04:48:00.000-08:00

i can never ever get sick of watching timmy. he really walks around the house like he's the king or something. you know he walks into room and pushes the door open/close by himself!? of course the doors are left ajar for him lar but hello, he actually pushes it! so cute lar im telling you. and then he treats the rug at home as his own bed then if he's unhappy he'll just shift the whole damn rug to a place of his liking.

oh i jes love timmy :)

2006-02-02T04:33:00.000-08:00

but these babies grow up to become this big. i likeeeee. ha ha ironically they're able to live in apartments, jes need loadsa exercise. i love the coat!!! gosh i cant wait for the new arrival! the only thing is that i wonder if i'll be able to cope with so much work coming sigh. i know two dogs are a handful BUT I SIMPLY LOVE THEM! :( ha ha actually it all depends on timmy. if he doesnt like the dog we cant buy him either. or else we'll never get a good night's sleep.

2006-02-02T04:28:00.000-08:00

heartbreaker. that's an 8 week old shetland sheepdog for you.

2006-02-02T04:14:00.000-08:00

my poor little baby boo fell sick after cny and WHY? because my mother has nothing better to do but feed him bak kwa while he's acting cute. and so he vomited a huge pile of yellowish gunk and lo and behold i spent $150 of my ang bao money on the vet. :( u know what, i shall get my mom to compensate me. after all she was the one who fed him the bak kwa. but he was so adorable, especially after he vomitted. kinda weird to say this but i am telling the truth. ha ha but before i lunge into my long-winded descriptions of timmy i shall jes let the pictures speak for themselves (or rather, Timmy.) hurhur.

heh i didnt know my bag could double up as a bed. so cute right. this was when i was studying for econs <3<3<3

oh and mommy wants to get a bigger dog! im thinking of either a collie or a shetland sheepdog. i know, a drastic change but they're the friendlier and gentler dogs. yup, we dont want timmy to get bullied, do we?

2006-01-30T05:23:00.000-08:00

i am officially pudgy :( fine im not like significantly fat but enough to get me irked that i almost cried trying to find something decent to wear. UGHH. the love-hate relationship i have with my wardrobe. great now i really sound like a bimbo.

this year's cny was boring to say the least. not happening at all, no spirit. but the ang bao collections are waaaay better than the previous years. i guess i wont be going back to visit anytime soon :D i love my granny! (not because she gives me money)

i think i shall jes save up this money and add more until i feel i've got too much then i'll decided what to splurge on. OR i shall go wear brace :D:D:D i likeeeeeeee. one of my weird fetishes. alternatively i can jes shop la whatever. im so stressed out this year i feel like restraint when it comes to shopping is kinda torturous haha whatever.

mommy's still gambling at ah ma's house. i came back early and i shall try to study. niteys and happy cny everybodies!

2006-01-23T04:21:00.000-08:00

geisha obssession :)

i lovelovelovelove memoirs of a geisha! yani i dont care what you think i think it's a wonderful show for all its resplendence, poignance and beauty. i really think zhang ziyi's made phenomenal progress. and all the dancing's really graceful and quite entrancing. although i really dont see how men can get horny looking at the wrist of a woman. lol. ahhhh okay see the oriental thingy's getting to me again. i wanna visit japan and look at the geisha and shogun houses! :(:(

was at kino yesterday and i went crazy looking at all the books. i wanna read so many things in additon to the library of books i have at home. sheesh. and i was actually engrossed in the analysis of measure for measure and the merchant's tale LOL. what the hell is school doing to me?! OH YES and im gonna buy all the geisha books i can ever get my hands on. madame butterfly and geisha of gion. aunty su ling recommended them to me so yeah baby here i come.

ha ha now i know what true love is. my dog stinks quite badly but im still hugging him like he's a teddy bear <3<3<3 everybody loves Timmy, people. ha ha i should be a copy writer or something.

oasis and the strokes is addictive. after so much dishwalla i think its time for a change.
waiting for my fish soup now. where where where where la.

2006-01-16T04:13:00.000-08:00

burp really have been eating a lot.

i was supposed to come home and do some readings before i start on my history essay but since four pm to now i have been sleeping, eating, eating, eating, watching tv and now im here. and there's project runway later. lols what a great sense of timing i have.

anyhoos.
life goes on. and my entries are kinda retarded so i think my readers, if i even have any to begin with, are like rolling their eyes non-stop while they scan the (web)page. i guess the 'pearls of wisdom from my dewy lips' as quoted from mr sayers aren't really pearly eh.

everytime i wanna blog about something, i always end up forgetting to blog about it. and i talk about everything except what i wanted to say initially. damnit.

the aglio olio for dinner sucked. too oily in my opinion and oil = fats.

something random: i think the way i wash my contact lenses looks like how the people at tako pachi squeeze out the mayo on those balls. seriously (or see-rye-yous-ly as hao jin likes to pronounce it :P) i hold the saline bottle that way! and then i aim at my contact lenses like they were tako pachi balls and squeeze out the saline. HA HA ok this is getting too retarded. perhaps my prospects are broadening eh? :D

2006-01-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

it's been a horridhorridhorrid day since the early afternoon. i think like right after hwei and cherlynn left church i started feeling crappy :( but i'm brightening up a liddle now ah sigh.
my uncle said that i put on weight SHITE LAAR. mr goh i need your pe soon.
lunch with all the air-stewardesses yesterday at orchard hotel. wasn't too good but passable i guess. the only thing i liked was the dim sum and i might as well have gone to hua ting if i wanted chinese food sheesh. oh anyways hwei and lynn wanna go to grand corpthorne or oscars for buffet :D:D:D ??? not this sunday okay because saturday i have grandma's birthday dinner which will be damn fattening. they all shove the food to me because i'm the youngest. shit la i wanna go to the line for buffet!! i'm turning into an aunty doris! speaking of her she was damn funny yesterday. leading stewardess but yet such a typical singaporean LOL. tak boleh tahan her laughter sometimes.

somehow i'm looking forward to school tomorrow. but i know i wont feel this way at 5 30 am. sometimes i wish i could understand myself better. while, en route to discovering myself, i shall continue gorging :)

toodles*

2006-01-13T05:25:00.000-08:00

common tests are in february, hallelujah.
common tests 2 after the june hols, amen.
prelims in september, shalom.
a levels in november, for the love of God, HELP!!!

as for my r paper, did better than expected. lol got like twice my promos score, so i'll take that as a sign not to drop math :)

history essay due on 23rd january, kudos to sayers.
ARGHHH and a whole pile of new imperialism readings were dumped to me jes yesterday. damnit i feel it coming now.

life in the fast lane sucks.

2006-01-11T07:45:00.000-08:00

got the chance to work those dormant muscles (if i even have them) of mine today. mr goh is one helluva funny pe teacher. pe's so much more bearable now despite the crazy 'let's run to terminal 2' shite we get from him lol.

i feel like a slacker. and i like this feeling but it has to end soon i know :( boohoohoo. the melancholy of school starting is still getting to me and i miss my wake-up-at-12pm-life i led during the hols. imaslothimaslothimaslothyslothhh.

this year, i made my resolution a little later. and i plan to stick to it this time. i'm taking each day as it comes and plans for the future shall be made only when necessary. i tend to think too much and worry perpetually. ms tham once said that i seem stressed out all the time and seriously, i've never thought of myself that way before. but it is good to know, and so i am determined to take things in my stride as of today.

yawnn. gotta lug my heavy guitar to school tomorrow. oh yesterday was spent bassing with Mr. Mole (HEHE) and he's funneh!! he was singing 'kiss me' by sixpence none the richer while we were practicing and he was seriously out of tune. BUT he's still a great musician. im excited about the bass! after the A's im conquering the drums and picking up my piano again!! I CANT WAIT.

after the A's, after the A's, after the A's, after the A's yadayadayadayadayada. why does it always have to be like this?

2006-01-09T08:36:00.000-08:00

shite i've been spending so much these few weeks and i'd better curb my spending soon. no actually, now. shopping with cherlynn and hwei today. it was supposed to be cny shopping for cherlynn but i ended up buying the most stuff. damnit that always seems to happen. reveals so much about me huh? bloody spendthrift i am. seriously i should jes STOP. it's coming to a point whereby i can't stand myself. hwei, cherlynn and myself have come to the conclusion that we're all a bunce of spoilt brats. actually more of hwei and me. cherlynn still has self-control. hurhur as for my hweehwee and me once we spot something we have to possess (did i spell it correctly) it. it's reallyreally horrible. and hwei was saying her phone's her very last luxury from now on and ha ha i kinda doubt that but let's hope that it really is. as for me today had better be the last shopping trip for like the rest of this month until the ang bao money starts rolling in >:)

but anyways, today was enjoyable because school ended at TEN :):):) hope the class had fun at ecp although it rained like cows and donkeys. gosh im tired, i admit defeat now and have to turn in no matter how much hw beckons. (speaks volume about my priorities too eh?)

2006-01-05T02:34:00.000-08:00

i love my volcom cap!! <3<3<3 chosen by the person with the best taste on earth hurhur (not me lar, i ain't that thick-skinned).

and needless to say, i love my timmyyyyyyyyyyy.

heh i love orientation period, because j2s have absolutely nuthin to do whoopies. minghao says to crash o nite tmw but going all the way there jes to crash o nite is like, um sorry tiring to say the least? BUT I DO WANNA SEE MY KATTIEE.

dumdumdiddlydiddlydumdumdiddlydidddddddlyy.

2006-01-03T22:44:00.000-08:00

r paper was do-able, and now i'm officially free for about a week or so. i guess next wednesday shall mark the start of mug-o-mania. for tonight, i'm going to let loose. didn't go out the other night, so today HURHUR SHOPPING!!! >:D

yawn im sleepy. havent been sleeping well at all. i sleep better in the afternoon, must be all the napping.

i love john mayer :)) i think 'your body is a wonderland' is sucha cheekily sexy song.
heh, like 'your body is a wonderland, i'll use my hands' HURHUR sneaky ass.

2006-01-02T00:32:00.000-08:00

school is a-starting-tomorroooow. and i have an r paper beckoning on wednesday. nevertheless i am going out tonight just to enjoy my last day of freedom. sigh, priorities screw em all today.

despite all the stress, am actually looking forward to seeing my bombos :) although i still aint any fan of vjc, i don't really have a choice but to go back there. perhaps i will never really like vjc, but my darlings do make it a load better.

and i'm turning 18 this year, hurhur. don't know what that means, but it's supposed to mean something right? i wonder if all j2s feel this way. DO YALL?? with the looming stress ahead and almost ur whole future at stake with ONE examination. fang yi was telling me how thankful she is for each day after the a levels were over. whatever it is, i'm already counting the days till it's finito.

2006-01-01T05:56:00.000-08:00

what can i say?

the start of 2006 for me has been SHIT. but whatever, shit happens. this year will not suck no matter what. damnit i feel like kicking something.

other than that, someone actually said i was hardworking today. so i hope this bodes well for my academic year.

(*&@!&^@!)@*!(@*!_@)!_)_$*$^#%#%%#^@&@*$(_#@_)!!?!@!@{

2005-12-29T08:24:00.000-08:00

I AM FALLING ILL AGAIN.

great start to the new year eh. that is if i dont recover by then. mixed feelings about school. i want it to start because im getting sick of staying at home and being unable to study. going to school feels much more productive. but i absolutely dread waking up at unearthly hours (sorry to those who wake up much earlier than me) and bloody PE. for the uninitiated, PE in vjc sucks shite because all we do is run and train for pft. no games no anything. most of all I HATE THE BLOODY A LEVELS.

today was a decadent day to say the least. first of all i shall not disclose what/why. secondly it was handphones galore but bah im not the one getting a new phone. thirdly it was CARLS JR which was bloody filling. and lastly it was narnia- didnt meet my expectations but wasn't too bad as well. king kong still tops my list this season. and why didn't that show with orlando bloom and kirstin dunst come out before/on christmas. what more appropriate a time than christmas for a rom-com to be screened?

i really think so3u should have a blog. shall mention it to fangsy and kattie later on. it will be such fun!! although ke'rayzae is like blaaaaaaaaaaaah already. i've like missed out on all the og outings since i left hence i am feeling really guilty. we should have a movie marathon at petty's house again. jes the girls with loads of food jes like the good old days. BAH vjc sucks, what can i say.

2005-12-27T07:58:00.000-08:00

just when you thought this thing belongs to the dump, IM BAAAACK! not with vengeance though, boo.

well updates on me:

1. i still am very stressed out bout math
2. i am still very in love with Timmy
3. i still think i can lose some weight
4. i still dont like vjc
5. i think that shopping is boring (surprise surprise)
6. my new hobby is making out
7. number 6 is a joke HAHA
8. i still am waking up at 12 everyday. it's like an automatic thing.
9. i can wait to go to school
10. as you can see i still havent changed much :)

and the one last thing that shows that i'm still same ol' me, despite saying that im sick of shopping for the gazillionth time, im going shopping tomorrow. HAHA. hello what's there to do in Singapore? getting new poddy earphones and that control thingy. and stuff for school i guess. im still deliberating over the juicy bag. *bombos: now you shud know who im going out with HAHA*

2005-12-09T07:13:00.000-08:00

my fangs jes msn-ed me from laos, how cool is that eh?? lucky toots, she's even holidaying with tin soldier BOO.

and me,

i'm stuck at home with nothing to do but christmas preparations, math and history revisions. this year, loadsa plans were made but all of it didn't materialise. kinda disappointing and frustrating- they were either foiled or jes conjured :( ARGH i can't wait for the A's to be over. i'm saying this even when the official 'A level year' hasn't started :(

aiya im jes plain sick of school lar.

2005-12-06T00:56:00.000-08:00

I HATE MATH.

it's been absolutely horrible to me and at the rate im going im gonna flunk my A's. DAMNIT.
feeling like shite now because my friggin computer refuses to let me play sims2 which i have bought since last year and IT STILL AINT WORKING. and my mom's being unreasonable by not listening to my woes. i feel like kicking someone right now.

2005-11-29T08:58:00.000-08:00

wellwell i cooked pasta for dinner today! with mommy of course and nope, it wasn't instant pasta! from scratch, so beat that! :)
lemme see i feel like blogging differently so i shall try varying the length of my sentences hur hur.
hao jin's house tomorrow for econs project.

i'm worried, homework's a mountain and r-paper's beckoning.
mom's not helping by asking me to study everyday.
well
i'm feeling fat but i couldnt run today because of the stupid rain but i won't be saying this later
because sleeping during a downpour's jes lovelay :))

alrighty mommy's complaining gotta run. told ya she's irritating me.

2005-11-27T07:52:00.000-08:00

you know after much pondering, i conclude that what i would like to have in life is really very simple- happiness. as cliched as it sounds, i really feel like i can live on happiness. as in a '24/7 high' on euphoria. okay maybe not that exaggerated. happiness from the simple things in life. like the way someone can get you all chummy inside, unlike any other. or how mommy makes the best pies in the world and how lucky you are to have her as your very own. basically, the high life's just too tedious to maintain, and being simple and neat is so much more sensible. i'm trying to cut down on the materialism and focus on what matters. sure it's great having prada, balenciaga and what not but still one can't live on it eh. i've come to appreciate and value the warmness and reliability a loving family can provide :) so yup my life's goal should be on how to build up a happy family. it's not as simple as i make it sound really. building a happy family entails financial stability, a roof over your head and well, decent clothes? as retarded as i (think i) sound, it makes perfect sense to me. but that really isn't my point. the question is: when all's taken away, what then is the sustaining element? i honestly have no inkling but as far as my almost-mature-seventeen-year-old-cranium can tell me, it probably is learning how to be grateful for whatever you have no matter how mediocre it may seem. most of all, i think the crucial thing is to be grateful for the ones who love you :)

ha ha there, i don't know i jes felt like writing that. that's kinda out-of-character huh? pardon the simplistic language i really am bummed out. this is blogging after all. who needs grandiloquence.

2005-11-25T07:02:00.000-08:00

my headaches are tormenting me again sigh. feeling lethargic and headachey now. i need exercise, so tomorrow morning it's off to run again! swimming's really bad for me because my skin's so sensitive the pool water's damn bad for it. which explains the condition of my skin now- ghastly. went to swim on wednesday and damn it was good. ha ha i changed my mind the following morning. haven't exercised since wed, so tomorrow i'll have to get up by hook or by crook.

WHY IS GARY OUT OF SURVIVOR! shite man i liked him! i think he's cool and that blardy stephanie should jes shut the hell up, she thinks she's some bloody goddess or something. and seriously, judd should get his fat ass outta the game. obviously they think Gary's a good player that's why they voted him out. lydia's getting on my nerves too sheesh. no gary, no survivor :(

watched cherlynn's korean show today. it's really sweet, second show that got my tearing. it's something like the notebook, what with alzheimer's disease and the like. touching, nevertheless. sigh sometimes i wish i dont live in singapore, but i dont wish to live in africa too :)

okie dokes headachey again ciao.

2005-11-22T08:05:00.000-08:00

ohmagad, someone with a truly beautiful soul has agreed to buy me my juicy bag!!!!!!! EGADS i love that person to bittybits!!!!!! i MEAN every word. OH MAN i still cant believe how blessed i am!!! goshgoshgosh im trying hard not to hyperventilate or something now.

THANK YOU LORD :)

now tell me, which one should i get. (ahem but it also depends on stock, darn)

2005-11-21T02:12:00.000-08:00

feeling accomplished! i've completed everything that i set out to do so yipeee for me! ran for about half an hour i think. yeah yeah i know it's not much, but it's my first day of exercise after a long period of dormancy :D then i didnt get to catch up on my sleep so that's the only thing i didnt do. weird huh. met mommy for lunch at that jap place. ate kwite a lot but most of it was like soba sauce hurhur. i had that cold somen + udon + soba thingy which came in little pots. how quaint. it relly aint a lot. so ya mommy ordered MORE. nevermind i aint eating anything for the rest of today so that makes one meal today! YAY today's going fantastically well! HURHUR you could make it better for me by telling me you're getting me that gorgeous baby for christmas/my birthday/or jes because ur too rich and too nice :D sigh im so silly.

im going to iron clothes later! it really is kinda therapeutic you know. try it all you undomesticated people HMPH.

2005-11-20T09:29:00.000-08:00

anyways all i want for christmas is THIS :D
hurhur great way to get into my good books man. its so GORGEOUS ain't she a baby? :)
I WANT I WANT I WAAAAANT.
there aint nothin juicy cant fix, especially a depressed girl. hurhur.

2005-11-20T09:10:00.000-08:00

hairy potty was rather nice, better than expected but it would have been better i fmore quidditch was shown. AND CEDRIC DIGGORY WAS HAWT STUFF GAWWWSH :D:D drool man.

well plans for tomorrow: wake up relatively early to run then head back to catch up on more sleep. then its lunch with the parentals followed by starbucks with me and my books :) sounds like a plan eh.

ooooh daddy jes brought home two ty bears for me. what a pleasant surprise. and i jes indulged in tako pachi and a lot of tori q all thanks to mom. owells today's the last day already. i really feel rather sick, kinda like that 'heart pain' feeling you get from eating too much good food.

yawn think im turning in. night world :)

2005-11-19T07:22:00.000-08:00

christmas came early. in the form of a crumpler. sometimes i jes gotta love my mom :) gee i sound so materialistic.

anyways linner (lunch + dinner) was damn fattening. nydc with mom saw us walloping a goldmine something which is actually cheesecake topped with chocolate and oreo base with double choc ice cream and choc chips EGADS, bratwurst pizza with loadsa mushrooms and a oven baked chicken green peppers something. gosh i jes had to give in to temptation. who the heck can resist nydc. now i feel like some ugly cake. hurr.

im sleepy and somehow i feel like ironing clothes HAHA the sun must be rising now :D (for ur info it is currently 11:27 pm)

2005-11-18T21:05:00.000-08:00

i feel so detached from whatever beliefs that i've been clinging on to since as far as i can remember. i'm slipping into that phase again, sigh. ha ha timmy wants to type something he keeps pawing the keyboard. and he stinks i shall bathe him tomorrow. anyways back to what i wanted to say. i hardly have the mood to do anything nowadays. mei was saying that i keep going home, even after pw was over. well for one i do like stoning at home because it's mindless and i love all things mindless. secondly, my favourite place in the world a.k.a my bed is at home, and thirdly i jes don't see the point of going out when all i do is yawn and regret coming out. i dont feel like shopping much anymore. i'm not even looking forward to christmas shopping.

last night i was chilling in my room listening to sappy songs with only a bed side lamp turned on and reading something. suddenly i felt like sucha rosemary. i keep reading and watching 'rosemary' type of books and show of late. to name some, wicker park (?!) , summer sisters (??!!)????? beats me.

mom wants me to go shopping with her (for her make up mind you) and obviously im not going, in the light of my previous paragraphs. besides, i'll have to lug my guitar around because there's moosik prac tonight. i ain't in the mood for some commuter/pedestrian jabbing today. i dont feel like sleeping anymore too heck i dont feel like anything, not even my integration.

on a lighter note while i was having my cereal this morning timmy brought his food beside the dining table and started having breakfast beside me. everybody say 'AWWWWWW'.

2005-11-18T06:12:00.000-08:00

on fire man.
ha ha dead bodies from ww2
jump for my love!
feast your eyes dudes.
SILOSO!

2005-11-18T05:51:00.000-08:00

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGOSSHHHHHH i can't believe he's my dog. AWWWWWWWWWW.

hurr so cute laaarr. that's timmy trying to make his bed.

my baby and love of my life <3<3<3

2005-11-17T04:22:00.000-08:00

woots jes cleaned my baby dog up smelling nice and clean now!

gaaaaaaaaaawsh im sooo annoyed now because there's this chanting thingy going on downstairs. i know i know, respect the dead. but helloooo at this time? it's kinda disturbing too. not in the freakish way but the 'ARGH SHUT THE HELL UP' way. ogay im not being 'religion-ist' here (think racist) jes that it really aint the time to be chanting now people. no cow sense at all sheesh.

jamming this morning at joy's place. twas damn funny, my classmates are jes.. indescribable. feeling sick these few days dont know why. i think i'm on overdrive for too long so im jes gonna take it slowly from now. reading my books at home with timmy on my lap is the perfect theraphy.

my hump my hump, my hump my hump my hump :D:D

2005-11-14T03:44:00.000-08:00

lovely dinner with hwei and family last night, not forgetting her hilarious sister :) ha ha now i understand why she's the only friend i know that loves her sibling.

watched 'slap her she's french!' today. what can i say? typical chick-flick, with booby babes that look like they've got a boob job at the age of seventeen. let's jes say thank God i live in singapore? >:D

brought timmy to pet safari later in the afternoon. got him all cleaned up and trimmed now he smells better than i do. oh gosh i do love my dog so much. ha ha. got this supa-de-dupa expensive dog wipes and a comb that costs seventeen buckeroos for him. its supposed to remove ticks and odour so it'd better be worth it. ha ha i can forgo my lunch money for my poochie. TIMMY KICKS ASS <3<3

lunch was at waffletown with mommy. twas alright la i mean what can you expect. saw vj people that i didnt know but i bet they didnt know im from vj too. yes i'm that inconspicuous (and lovin' it).

sentosa tomorrow with the class. FOUR HOUR lecture on wednesday (oh God where art thou?). jamming session on thurs again. this reminds me i'd better go practice my guitar soon. heh.

oh timmy's sleeping behind me!!! shit where's the cam he looks absolutely adorable <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

2005-11-09T06:53:00.000-08:00

random thoughts:
- OP: fergeddit it.
- Tab tv's interesting
- I need to lose weight
- But that kit kat peanut butter bar looks yummilicious
- No you had olive rice for lunch woman
- Where is Ms Tham! And i cant find my GPP softcopy UGH.
- VJ 156 rocksyourfunkehsocks.
- I wanna watch stepford wives!
- Timmy's a darling <3
- Mom wants to get us a new pup! :D:D:D
- Which breed should i get?
- Hmm i think i shall name it ralph :)
- ...........

2005-11-04T06:35:00.000-08:00

oh my goodness i jes cried my eyes out so bad im afraid i wont be able to see tmw lol. THE NOTEBOOK IS SOOOOOOOOOO SWEET!!!! ohmy ohmy ohmy, i'm never getting married until i find someone like that ok. i was practically bawling my way thru the whole show. sigh and that actress is so preddy!! i likeeee (uh oh lesbian tendencies again).

2005-11-04T01:49:00.000-08:00

yay! im bumming around again! movie marathon started two hours ago i think. finished princess diaries 2. yes i know, what an air head. but it actually is rather sweet despite the lack of realism. oh but damn cool la her wardrobe. and that cuteee guy :D

they didn't have crazy beautiful nor did they have cruel intentions. ah shall try my luck another time. got girl with the pearl earring, wimbledon, the notebook, wicker park and the stepford wives. i skipped american pie because they didnt have the first one so im gonna wait till they get it then watch the whole thing. so everybodies, do recommend some good movies kay?

i love bumming around! :)

2005-11-03T07:19:00.000-08:00

heh im proud to say that everything i ate today has been fat free! well, almost. if you don't count my goober with bread for brekkie -cheesygrin- but hey its a good start aight.

ooh timmy's sitting on my lap now looking like sucha darling! (heh mandatory sentence on timmy again)

watched alexander today! its rather booring towards the end. i liked the fighting scenes most of all. see i told you im weird. kwite cool what, you know they look like they're dead and dying and all but you know its all a movie. kinda like 'HAHA I KNOW YOU'RE LYING' that kinda thing. and when they film men dying i have no reaction. rather i scream when i see the horses get shot by arrows. see im a true blue animal welfare soc member :D

now im left with cold mountain. watching it with mom in like fifteen minutes i think. (ohh timmy's shifting himself and his nails are hurting me. ow.) gonna return them all tomorrow and then i shall have new movies to watch. have decided on wicker park, crazy beautiful, talented mr ripley, and um..any suggestions?

phoonie enlightened me on the truth behind the skeleton key, and damn they're devious. oh shit tata young jes came on my itunes, gotta change it EW. why's she even on my playlist in the first place?!

ogay mommy's calling. nicole kidman, DROOL :D:D

*yanibunny: ha ha i personally think she's fugly (oops) but some of the clothes are yummy!*

2005-11-02T05:25:00.000-08:00

omgoodness am i the pudge or what. im so frickin fat already i tak boleh tahan anymore. mommy keeps bringing me for good lunches and dinners, and that shall not do! i'll be piling on the kilos like no tommorrow man. shitness, im so going running tomorrow morning. DAMNIT WHY CANT I BE BORN WITH JESSICA ALBA'S BOD. hurrrr. wait, on second thought, if i were born with her bod as a baby, EW. that'll be one freaky phenomenon rofl.

timmy has been sucha sweet boy, i love my doggie!

i want clothes, clothes, clothes! you know if i dont find another bag by the end of this month, im heading to juicy for sure. i also tak boleh tahan this already. im sucha brat. you know why im typing so compulsively, its da moosik im tellin ya. listening to mr jones now and its thumping hard so my fingers are thumpin hard too. yadayada yeah like whatever cheryl.

watched drumline jes now, kwite cool but i wont say it's as nice as yanibunny said so. i dunno, im weird i like war movies :)

2005-11-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

har-har, to all of you who tagged.

jes finished watching monster-in-law. mommy and i went mad at the video-ezy shop that jes opened. hurhur we rented six movies and i forsee manymany more late nights with timmy at our feet :D i love the hols! if not for pw tmw i'd be watching ms congeniality 2 now. oh oh! and i wanna borrow sex and the city too. the clooothessss *drool*!

and for those of you who are wondering, i don't hate j-lo all that much anymore. i still think she looks like a maid, but she does looks preddy too (sometimes, heh). i've grown out of my childish 'EEK DIE J-LO!' phase, guess cuz that part of my life's over too. well, not quite but you get what i mean. (uh, do you?)

today was pleasant i guess. kinda memorised my script already but its still not perfected yet. tomorrow's gonna be a loooong day. i wanna bum around at home the whole day watching moovies! ughh die pw! im addicted to watching movies. im tellin ya its so much more worth it renting em, i paid 24 buckeroos for 6 movies. that's like dirt cheap compared to the rip-off 8.50 for one miserable ticket. and i prefer the comfort of my own couch than that cramped up space they let you sit in. besides i have all the junk food in the world at home! beats popcorn anytime eh.

yikes back to scripting!

2005-10-30T09:42:00.000-08:00

yanibaby, there's no such thing as salvation yani :)

pwpwpwpwpwpwpwpwpwpw. its clouding my mind and everything has to be forgone to give it first priority, except God.

ogay, seriously i have nothing to blog about so i don't see the point of this. oh pw with them jes now was quite fun despite my horrible mood. i dont seem to be in the mood for anything now. ennui in my veins again, har-har. AIYA I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY LA. im a girl of few words, 'nuff said!

2005-10-23T11:13:00.000-07:00

oh how could i forget to post this, i cut my hair!! heh. i've got bangs now! but it looks weird when i tie my hair cuz the bangs are a little too straight gotta wait for it to grow out a little more. looks like i wont be tying my hair much now. who cares, school's out anyways

2005-10-23T10:50:00.000-07:00

kinda emotional lately due to undisclosable factors. diet's been going not bad so far, one good meal a day followed by soup and fruits. shopped quite a bit today with mom and aunty doris. i got the jeans! :D but i look fat in them so futher incentive to lose weight!! got a pair of cute earrings too but damnit so expensive lar. still they were too cute to resist so im guilty of overspending today. mom wanted to get that nike jacket-thingy which was so cool but in the end we decided it aint really what i want so we're gonna look again. owells i do have my roxy jacket, as jasmine loves to remind me hurhur.

oh there's this funkaye japanese pseudo teppanyaki place in taka. food aint darn good or anything but i like it there. and they serve loadsa beef! portion's small though. but it beats yoshinoya anytime so if yall have time go check it out. it's opposite yoshinoya in taka. :)

2005-10-21T00:42:00.000-07:00

okay since i have so much time till mom comes to pick me up i shall blog some more. alright shall list down stuff i want. again, may i emphasize on the 'want'. successful demand is when you want and CAN afford it, so i proabably have unsuccessful demand or something. HAHA. i shall buy more pretty clothes to encourage me to lose weight. YES I SHALL.

1. coolio jeans yani and i saw yesterday. perhaps i shall get it tmw. *yani please don't kill me*
2. a BAG goodness i dont know how many times i've said this already. i havent got a single decent bag besides the one i bought from bangkok and i cant even use it for school :(
3. a nice black mini that i can wear anytime. i want those that have stringy ends.
4. a white belt! saw one with bertie but he was like 'what! 20 bucks for a white plastic thing? it's not even leather!' sheesh guys.
5. that nice nike jacket thingy. it aint even a jacket really! i can use it when leading worship! then i wont look so informal! GREAT IDEA EH. :D
6. plain tees (shit i'll really have to lose weight to fit nicely into these)
7. pierce one more hole on my right lobe. right i know this aint exactly fitting for a shopping list.

SIGH HONG KONG WHERE ARE YOUUUU.

2005-10-20T23:44:00.000-07:00

so pw written report's finally done. you have no idea what we went through to get it done. lesson learnt: no more last min work folks. that means we gotta start on our o.p and i&r reallyreally soon.

stay over at my house and chan's house. ha ha it was rather funneh because we all started becoming delirious and the things we did when we were so freaking tired while trying to type were simply hilarious. oh the down-side? i've got more food in my house because mommy thought they were gonna eat a lot and she bought soooo much junk now my house really is like a supermarket. *hwee: please come over soon and help me finish it up!!*

oh but i gotta add, i'm going on detox. soup for two weeks and fruits and corn flakes as breakfast and snacks. non-fat cornflakes to be precise. seriously, bloody clarence said i look plump UGHHHHHHHHHH. im sure he's the only one who thinks so but who cares man! if one idiot can say i look plump, it's gotta have some truth to it. alright alright, admittedly im fatter compared to my skinny shiet self last time, but definitely not FAT right?? okok im paranoid already still i cant let my weight go out of hand. im DEPRESSED.

my grades aren't anything to celebrate for either, but hey what can you expect when you didn't put in much effort. ok fine i did, but it was all last minute so don't come and say like 'but you studied what!!' DAMN RIGHT i did, but i aint any genius that can score an A with last min mugging aight?

AND AS FOR THOSE WHO LOVE TO SEE ME SUCK AT GRADES YOU CAN LAUGH NOW. WATCH ME GET MY LAST LAUGH NEXT YEAR DAMNIT.

disclaimer: that wasn't aimed at my close buds :)

good now that i've said what i wanted, the whole of my j1 year can screw off and go to hell. except my glorious first three months of course :)

2005-10-14T09:19:00.000-07:00

woweee tired like shiet and peedarbeeyew is taking over my life noooooooooooooooooooo :(

but my pw mates are great fun so it makes up for everything. im jes sick of going to the same place everyday to do pw lol. and stupid mei and chan have to eat so much and drag me into it.

thursday: after a huge meal of carls' jr, they went to buy a pint of ben and jerrys and we jes sat at those benches looking like real cheapos freeloading off the plastic spoons from carls' jr and we ate like pigs. but it was damn good. can feel my throat giving way though. gotta restrain myself already. then they went back to carls jr to eat AGAIN. goodness and i ordered fries! oh and the waitor was so geekily cuuttee.

today: went to smu for interview and we bugged the security till they finally gave us the number to call sheesh. but the lady was sooo nice damn cool lar can. headed to millenia walk and they started EATING AGAINNNNNN. then it was candy empire-ing for us. shiet i bought wonka's mud sludge and that pseudo willy wonka movie tie in choc bar and this gummy thing filled with sour nerds and this sweet thingy. and i still have whip, m&ms and peanut butter kit kat bar in my fridge and ferrero rochers and A LOT of food daddy bought for me from jasons!!! ARGHH wat happned to the meaning of DIET.

lunch with darrell, david and leonard at heeren after that. didnt eat that much though. darrell's mad about sashimi all he ate was sashimi sushi like waddaheck. met mei and chan again at starbucks, pwed more till we couldnt take it anymore. went to borders to get my books but they didnt have cloud of sparrows. gonna go down to kino to get it tomorrow i cannt stand it when i cant find the books i wanna read. i got my 50 facts book though! preddy happy bout it. and then i shall contemplate on the other books that i have been wanting to buy but have not brought myself to do it yet. decisions decisions. they felt hungry (again- how many times do i have to use this word) and we walked all the way to scotts jes to eat pasta mania which i did not partake of. i chose the healthier path and had yami yoghurt yummm. mei and chan, yall are on ur way down the road of lipids man. :P

open house tomorrow not really looking forward to it. Bertie's coming and i think chickee is too. well if ur coming come look for me k. sms me or something.

yawn im tired, early day tomorrows so i guess this is it nighters.

2005-10-11T11:09:00.000-07:00

marketing today was rather fun actually, ignoring my (pseudo) bombotic remarks. (the fish is pinkish cuz its blushing and the red one's sun burnt ROFL). marinading everything was SICK to the max but it was kwite an experience. the sotong's so freaking sick can. the black shitty thing was like oozing out and one of the sotong had a fish head stuck in its body. and nice vanna had to scare the daylights out of me by screaming 'AHH FISH HEAD!!' when i was holding the sotong (already gingerly). sheesh thanks a lot vanna :P

MY DORY FISH WAS A HIT :D yay everyone liked it and seriously it smelt good. i love dill :) mommy says its unfair cuz ive never cooked it for her before. well today was my first time and i'm glad it turned out well. really wanted to stay over, they were having so much fun but mommy simply didn't hear of it so too bad for me boo.

im too tired to blog much now jes waiting for my hair to dry. oh mom went to cut her hair and get highlights and she looks like a hot momma now HURHUR. hwei get ready to be dazzled.

hrms shall slack the whole day tomorrow and read my books, watch a couple of dvds which daddy bought. the longest yard! or perhaps i shall go out to watch some movie. dont really feel like going out though. really tired. kays im yawning and my eyes are watering so its a sign to sleep. NIGHTS. :)

2005-10-10T08:31:00.000-07:00

im so shagged and my mom says i look the part sigh. woke up really early this morning to meet ching to go to sheng siong to buy bbq stuff. going tomorrow morning too which means another early morning. it was rather fun actually, and the aunties were rather annoyed with me cuz i kept squealing. the fish all piled up atop each other looked really grr-ross and the sotong looked damn icky too. sorreh i haven't been to a market for eons. ha ha believe it or not, STEVEN got the dill for us because only cold storage has it. yay! i can't wait to try my hand at the dory fish, all thanks to my dear kevin! i'll never forget the yummy dory he whipped up for us last time :)

chalet today was alright, bummed around and i gave up trying to learn how to play mahjong after like fifteen minutes or so. played some weird game of ball but it was all good fun :) hrmms i bet they're having loads of fun there now but alas i cant stay over. momma's so protective :( but anyways my house's so darn near. mei lin and tart came over to microwave the mashed potatoes they made cuz the chalet had no oven. and they had fun playing with timmy! OH my favourite dragon show's OVER and the ending's so dumb for goodness sake. at least my darling white dragon's turned good in the end. and there was this game show after the serial that had him in it. gosh he looked so cuteeeee! :D:D:D:D

sunday: church in the morning followed by shopping with aunty doris and momma. it was really damn funny and i bet aunty doris' laughter was resonating through orchard. *hwei: i bet you can imagine it vividly hurhur* mom bought a heap of clothes and boy is aunty doris scary. the skirt was so short i wouldnt even wear it but waddaheck she has nice legs, i don't :( mom got me this nice tube. i was supposed to get this sexaye black dress but mom fell in love with it and she snatched it from me and bought it for herself. like ?!?!?!??!?!?! but i've got tons of stuff so i jes gave in to her. drinks with them at rouge in the night where i polished off a hugeass serving of ice cream. it was daaaamn goooood. i'm supposed to be losing weight but that was not to be missed. phoonie we've gotta do aight? you'll LOVE IT. and we gotta go try the fried mars bars too! :):)

kinda in a dilemma right now and suddenly i jes want everything in this world to stop, and let me breathe. it kinda feels like everything in this whole world is every single person's milieu, but in a different way personally. inanimate or animate, they jes make up something that's made for you to interact with. sounds rather selfish but sometimes it jes feels this way. i guess God's the only one that understands, but now it seems like God's in my way. either way, i'll still submit because there's no one else but God that knows best.

right gotta sleep, im bummed out. niters.

2005-10-07T23:31:00.000-07:00

im up now! ha ha it's been a long time since i've woke up at such a late hour. well it used to be the norm for me but ever since jc late seems to be 10am. sigh. museum yesterday was surprisingly interesting. i LOVED that painting of Saint Xavier and Helena really magnificent. it's like larger than life and overwhelming and somehow the archaic feel gets to me and i feel so insignificant compared to a painting which has weathered thousands/millions of years. seriously WOAH.

left for orchard after which we bumped into LOADS of people it became rather embarrassing. sigh. of all the people they have to be from raffles odac SIGH. i mean if it were jes his friends that i dont know i don relly give a shit cuz that'll jes be his problem. like HELLO I BUMPED INTO GERALD PHOON MIAO DE AND TEO SEE CHING?! ARGHH im gonna get hell from them lar. actually jes phoonie cuz my ching is too sweet HMPH. and lots of vj people as well. SIGH. it mean it aint a crime but i really dont like rumours to fly. :( daffodil, charmaine and wanying too! ah waddaheck lar.

shopped a little and im appalled at bertie's taste in clothes. female clothing that is. except he saw this really nice top which is the only exception hurhur. didnt buy much yesterday because i was too tired from all the walking in the museum. that idiot's actually going today and tommorrow too. well i cant blame him actually. if it were stuff directly related to christianity i'd go everyday too. oh and i forgot to mention, i actually saw the throne of pope pius IX! cool stuff huh?

now im waiting for mom to come and pick me up to go to gramp's place. gotta control myself because my grandma'll stuff me with so much food. i'd better pray she dussen have roti prata because i can NEVER control myself with prata. bringing my book along to read too. i've been DYING to read it ever since i finished the first book in the series. and i think im gonna get a few more even though i still have more unread. really wanna immerse myself in books this holidays.

oh i love this post-promos life. i cant imagine what post-pw life will be like HEH.

2005-10-06T03:50:00.000-07:00

post promos plans

-museum with bertie (?!)
-catching up with fangs, petty, kat and all those i have MISSED SO MUCH :(
-a54 bbq
-lunch with david and darrell (LOL DSQUARED MAN!)
-planning of christmas play and youth outreach
-watch corpse's bride! and a gazillion other movies. can you believe it the last movie i watched was mr and mrs smith. gosh.
-gotta meet up with ke'rayzae too! miss them like KERAYZAE!! :D
-open house
-SHOPPING (LIKE DUH!)

woots with so much to do who the hell cares bout math HUH. :D

2005-10-06T02:10:00.000-07:00

im awfully depressed. math was horrendous and i was five minutes late. can you believe it i can actually oversleep during the promos. sigh but by God's grace i was only five minutes late. but i didnt get to wash my hair in the morning i jes kinda rinsed it and that ruined my day because if i dont have a good bath in the morning i'll turn into a grouch :(

well now im all nice and clean so im feeling better but math's still cutting my heart

BUT its OVERRRRRRRRRR the damn promos! today's my 'someday'! and there's class bbq to prepare for. gonna feed a54 man! :D

okay i wanna sleep but my hair's wet nvm i shant sigh anymore toodles :)

2005-09-30T22:32:00.000-07:00

blogger's still screwed i see well who gives a damn lar. tuition ended half an hour ago and im kinda tired already. feel like going to sleep again but no i cant i cant i cant DAMNIT promos SCREW YOU LAR :(

teen angst, you see.

i have so much to do and there's like less than two more days to the second paper. i need to remain calm. i really wanna go somewhere else to study but im afraid i'll get distracted but i do need a change of environment. im one confused child. i need another surprise deliveryy :(

right right it will all be over someday. SOMEDAY.

2005-09-29T21:34:00.000-07:00

i know i should be mugging but i have to blog about this. my darling mother jes gave me a huge surprise to encourage me! :):):)

jes when i was bored and hugry and pissed off with that stupid primary school beside me for making so much noise, my doorbell rang. then i became wary and all that because i dont like anonymous visitors. so i tried to like tip toe to the door and see who's there. and IT WAS THE PIZZA MAN. damn shocked lar because i obviously didnt order pizza. but i decided to open the door cuz the pizza man cant really be dangerous. i thought he mistook the address or something but then the first thing he said was 'are you miss cheryl'. damn right i am and i discovered mommy made a surprise delivery for me from her office!! all paid for! :D and all i had to do was sign and EAT. hur hur she ordered like the spicy wings, garlic bread, some star potato fries and PIZZA and MEAT BALLS swimming in cheese. I LOVE MY MOMMA. so here i am relishing my meatballs and im gonna attack the rest later. right okay im done with this so its back to the history. im so motivated to study now. i love love love my mommy!! :D

2005-09-29T00:36:00.000-07:00

wow blogger sucks. the icons on the top of this typing space are all messed up wat the hell. im feeling so tired, like brain-drained even though i havent studied much. DAMNIT. keep wanting to sleep whyyyy. :(

i feel like crap. promos get the hell out of my life.

2005-09-27T09:28:00.000-07:00

hrmm blogging the night before my first promo paper hurrr im like the most hardworking student in the whole wide worlddddd :D

really do not know how to respond to tomorrow except it feels rather sudden, like a slap in the face. perhaps after tomorrow i shall be motivated to study, save for the fact that *ahem* promos is less than a week away. well everything's so uncertain now, like how i really wanna do my econs s paper but then i feel like i cant really manage four subjects already what more with an additional paper that's supposedly the worst of all the s papers that are offered to the arts students. at least that's what jon says, but i do believe to each has his own so yeah I DO LOVE ECONS YOU KNOW. :(

heh im gonna drop origins of the cold war so that's one hugeee load off my back. i love ms goh!

i am going to remain placid and composed, conquer tomorrow's paper and come back smiling like an idiot :D okay perhaps not an idiot since im supposed to have pwned geepee hurr. we'll see tomorrow.
nites*

2005-09-26T03:17:00.000-07:00

fatigue is taking it's toll on me. i slept at four playing the guitar last night. can you believe it, playing guitar when i should have been mugging :( this does not bode well. woke up at twelve attempted to study but went to sleep again until two. shit lar promos start on wednesday and im still so lackadaisical about everything. ha ha okay now im reminded of yani. and stupid girl, i dont care i still think my pencil case is cute. yesterday someone said its cute too so YES ITS CUTE :P

i really dont wanna go to school tomorrow, if not for history and lit. right i so hate exams. friday the seventh oh where art thou????

geepee is freaking me out. i feel so unprepared. the last time i wrote an essay was like, two months ago i think.

skin's kwite horrid now but im going to doctor roy's later. and i'm so gonna get teased by him because of that fateful day at borders. of all the people i had to meet him. BUT im not guilty of anything anyway so watever.

i love timmy i love timmy i feel like such an airhead. and dont you say something like 'you are one'. damn you if you did lol.

2005-09-24T04:48:00.000-07:00

stupid bertie. he blames me for deleting his testimonial for me when he was the one who dared me to do it sheesh guys. im bored and tired and feeling really fat because i still have not stopped eating :D

mom's grilling salmon now and there's peranakan chicken with my favourite broccoli and oyster sauce!! YUMMEH aren't yall jealous?

jas: i thought i told you that time that i bought this huge box of markers?
hwee: let's go notebook/stationery crazy after promos heh. :D

2005-09-22T07:15:00.000-07:00

really bored of studying so i decided to take picas of whatever dats on my table. yes i know not entertaining at all but at least it's better than math. right so now i gotta get back to it. SIGH.

2005-09-22T07:03:00.000-07:00

my fetish ha ha i sound like a nerd man

2005-09-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

colour parade! what'd i do without them?

2005-09-22T06:37:00.000-07:00

my messy table with my pretty pencil case. but yani thinks otherwise :( oh and, spot the poddy!

2005-09-22T03:41:00.000-07:00

gosh i feel so majorly depressed all because of that damned G.P. GEOMETRIC PROGRESSION LAR. :(

waiting for ben to come and save my math from its dismal state. i like all the topics after induction, but term 1,2's work jes shite lar. i hate it when i cant do my math!! i think ive said that like a trillion times already, but its truee!!! :(

sigh im stressed and so i've been eating. FAT DEPRESSED FUGLY HEADACHEY AND PMSING ME.

but well at least i have God :)

2005-09-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

came back really early today and ended up sleeping for FOUR SOLID ROCK HARD hours. geez and what happened to revision? gone down the drain with all my dreams (of the possibility of doing well). nah shall look on the bright side, look to God!! :)

eom is FINALLY done sheesh. but i think i did it in a much shorter time compared to the rest. i dont really understand, i mean its like 600 words right? no no not implying anything jes in case you were wonderin.

i feel like a pig because ive been stressed out and therefore eating like a starved refugee. okay that was mean but ya lar im eating a lot. point made. cant wait for all of this to be over, then fangsy bertie and i can go out! and kat petty and everyone that i've missed soooo much. hur they were saying i should go crash the open house. but i'll feel sooooo nostalgic. it feels like yesterday when i went for the open house all the way at mount sinai :( and stupid jing ming brought us around and daoing my friends all because he didnt know them ha ha. see grown up rafflesian guys are eeeew (BERTIE!!) but cute little ones are sooooo adorable. oh no now i sound like that paedophile that hangs around moelc macs looking at little ri boys in tiny shorts. hurrr.

i love my bombos! jes needed to say that. and HWEE HWEE, YAYAPAPAYA and PHOONIEBABOONIE too <3

2005-09-19T02:22:00.000-07:00

taking a break from complex numbers. wooh my brain's malfunctioning. in the words of chua zhi wei anslem bertie iggy wiggy piggy ignatius 'quite complex leh the numbers'. ha ha yeap totally encapsulates the nature of the topic eh?

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im tired.

ooh paragraphing.

HAHA alright alright. you know my cousin lost soooo much weight she's a gloriously skinny 48 kg now. AWSHUCKS. this is baaad the next time i see her i'll be the fatass. nah its alright, God dussen judge us according to our shape eh. you know what, I LOVE GOD. :D

im like listening to all my hillsong albums. i dont know but i think hillsongs totally pwns the worship industry, if you can call it an industry. never fails to get me revived. one day, i will make it to hillsong college, jes watch. then my chances of seeing my darling tulele will increase significantly and of course that hottie :D:D ha ha yesyes wrong reasons for going there. but you know im jes kidding :) it's called fringe benefits ;)

yesterday i blew a lot of money of stationery (but mommy paid heehee). well i have one of these quirks, getting an adrenaline rush from buying nice pens and markers and highlighters and paper.*hwee: you totally get what i mean right?* its kind of my way of motivating myself to study actually. mom used to say 'you think ur in university ah. even uni students dont buy stationary like you do' ha ha i guess she's right, but hey at least its only stationery. can you imagine if it were balenciagas?

ookie wasting time, break time's up toodles.

2005-09-17T07:43:00.000-07:00

whoopsies update update! sorreh been really tired and unmotivated lately. imnotstudying. im not studying. imnotstudying. how. how. how. how. :(

mom dragged me out today for lunch and we ended up at home like in the evening :( and i watched hillsong dvd for like two hours then listened to chc's cross cd and my whole day was gone BOO. i dont know why i bought that stupid cd, but its like i have to buy the cd if i know how to sing the songs. um that applies for christian songs only. and im still rather peeved about being unable to get one song, sheesh.

have i mentioned that i'm fat? nah i dont have to mention it, yall prolly know already. seriously im a ball of lard. im getting tetchy and i wanna sleep but noooo i cant because there's something that should be damned to hell that's bugging me - PEEDARBERYEW.

yesterday's interview was so cool! the director was sooooo nice and he refused to accept our chocolates, gave us COMPLIMENTARY samples of the material we need (and generous amounts of it may i add), sent us to the mrt station and even wants us to come back and work as interns for him. cool eh? well sorreh im not interested in that industry so i prolly wun go and work for him or whatever. but i think mei and jamie may so yup good for them.

ha ha i type so childishly. dont see the need for grandiloquence in blogs though. so showoff. hurhur. and this is boring me again. i hate the com lar gives me nothing but headaches. alrightey im off. nighty.

2005-09-10T11:01:00.000-07:00

this is really random, especially at this time of the night- or should i say morning, but daddy's buying home green tea mooncakes!! and im SO HAPPY! i sure hope he remembered i hate yolks in mooncakes. right its late and im gonna turn in. niteyyy*

2005-09-08T04:31:00.000-07:00

jes had a glorious dinner of chicken fries coleslaw and a yummy butter bun. you know those buns which are simply sinful but soooo good? well they're my favourite and i dont care if they're oily and full of calories. i really wanna know how they make em. now im waiting for ben to come over for some math. today was rather pleasant, although i woke up really late. nono im not gonna disclose what time hurhur. really need to start exercising soon. perhaps this saturday. tomorrow's pw and i hope we'll have great fun. oh no i jes remembered we're ordering food in for lunch which means more oil and lard. ah to hell with that.

hmm im lovin wage theory, are you? :)

2005-09-07T00:07:00.000-07:00

right so now that i've calmed down, i think im in a better state of mind to blog. finally my room stinks less and the construction has stopped. Thank God. really, all i need to do is...calm down. im so irritated most of the time, with all the work due, approaching exams gah you name it. i wish i could drive because i love sitting in the car jes thinking withdrawing into my own world and thinking about whatever i want in that very place at that very moment. on the plane i was looking out of the window and thinking about how the world looked like God's canvas and i fantasized about how he would draw on it and add dashes of green and blue here and there, and 'it was good'. ha ha and also how orderly the roads actually look from the top when you actually get down to it, it looks like shit (talking about bangkok hurhur). anyways bangkok is beautiful, not in the breathtaking sense of the word, but like mersmerizing. all its sounds, smells and sights, simply intoxicating. perhaps i havent been travelling for sucha long time, that's why. mom says we might go again after pw is over, or we'll go to perth (YAWNNN). i should count my lucky stars to tell the truth. ive learnt to be more humble now. i kinda watched this movie before i left for bangkok that was so heartbreaking. its called 'beyond borders' with angelina jolie (yes you expected that didnt you?) and its about those stuff that i love, aid for third world countries and stuff. i really should work for the UN huh. yup and i saw this scene of the baby that looked REALLY scary but so dreadfully sick i almost cried. (there she goes again) sorry pardon my randomness and bracketing i really dont feel like writing for aesthetic appeal or whatever you call it because right now i really dont care what people think of me. ogay back to the show, yeah it was so heartbreaking and coupled with my trip to bangkok where i saw how hard people worked and struggled, yeap i definitely am humbled. i know people usually say that they're humbled because someone jes showed them how there are so many more people that are tons more talented than you are. but i can't really find the right word to describe how i feel in my context. so humbled it shall be.

anyways i dont really feel like blogging much anymore. more of this after the promos + pw with sporadic entries as my refuge from market failure and government intervention, bismarck, napoleon, complex numbers, differentiation, geepee and the glass meneagerie (which btw, is a rather nice play) and chaucer and aiya i dono lar all the best to all you out there sitting for prelims next week. be it a or o levels. and all the best to me and you and you.

bye.

2005-09-06T22:10:00.000-07:00

i cant study!!!! my whole room smells of baygone and its giving me a headache. there's bloody noisy construction going on outside. HOW TO CONCENTRATE YOU TELL ME :(

anyways im back but i dont feel like blogging much.

to all who tagged: ive missed yall too!! :):)

2005-09-01T06:32:00.000-07:00

hurhur in the boarding area now freeloading off the internet access. well im tired from lugging the damn luggage thank God its checked in already. gotta go in in about ten minutes. woot. right im jes bored. byeeeeee. love!

2005-09-01T01:01:00.000-07:00

bloody essay's finished! HURHUR im soooooo relieved because can u imagine if i leave for bangkok with an uncompleted essay i'd be skinned alive by ms tan man. well so now i can keep my skin! :)

leaving in about four hours i gues. actually i wanted to leave earlier to go for dinner but then i realised that business class serves huge portions on the plane so i decided to fast all the way till dinner. kinda making up for my broken fast yesterday hurhur. nah shall fast doubly hard when i come back :)

cant wait cant wait! i have a looooong list of stuff to buy but then i havent got it written down so i'll prolly forget something and then when i come back i'll start whining. so yeah i should write it down lar waddahell.

HAOJIN'S SUCHA SWEETIE. thanks dearie for helping me hand up my essay! what'll i do without you man! love yaaaaa.

until i come back, adios. take care everyone! *thanks angela! and i wont forget bout ur necklace!*

2005-08-31T02:37:00.000-07:00

woot today was great! teachers' day wasn't that bad after all, and my darling phoonie can shake that ass rather well eh. hurhur ching and i were like swooning until yani had to go 'shut up cheryl he's your best friend!' HAHA. sorreh but im not interested in you phoonie.

went out with bertie after school and that dodo actually pulled me to esplanade library to study! luckily i brought my unification notes or else i'd have nothing to do. but half the time we were fooling around instead of studying lar. he actually called nicholas up to disturb him and tell him im a bimbo like whatever man ig. and he kept using my notes as rough paper for his bio and it ended up with me having nothing to read. left for orchard for lunch and then we saw veralene oh my goodness. and like a million other rj ppl tongues are gonna wag man sigh. well its really nothing scandalous so whatever. saw heidi, PETTY (who was like WHO'S DAT GUY!?!?!), a million other vj ppl too, and yeah mostly were his friends lar. heh i'm not in rj anymore so whatever it's his prob THBBT.

well had loadsa fun and i kinda broke my fast cuz i felt i'd be sucha wet blanket if all i ate was salad. walked a lot more and we saw doc roy at borders goodness. and then they had their conversation on harry potter and c.s lewis yadayada while i was looking like a goon. ha ha then doc roy was like 'oh so do you take lit' and he went 'uh no' LOL and i went 'im the one who takes lit' HAHA *runs and hides in shame* walked a lot more and then he had to go for dental appointment so i went home and now im here typing this. yummy dinner's chicken rice! sigh fattening and i'm so sleepyweepy. shall sleep then finish up my essay!

2005-08-30T07:10:00.000-07:00

i lovee history :):)

extract from readings on German unification :

'...Germany is clearly too small for us both; as long as an honourable arrangement concerning the influence of each cannot be concluded and carried out, we will both plough the same disputed acre. In the not too distant future we shall have to fight for our existence against Austria...it is not within our power to avoid that, since the course of events in Germany has no other solution.'

-Otto Von Bismarck

i think he put it really well into words, i marvel at how they can put complex situations into words. its like you really have to be able to feel what it's like being in their shoes to be able to express the situation so accurately and lucidly. sigh when will i be able to do that.

anyways to my darling bombos going on the geog trip,

TAKE CARE OKAY. I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO PLEASE DONT LIKE DROWN WHILE ROLLING IN MUD. *hugs* have fun and hopefully i'll be back with loadsa goodies for yall! hearts!

and so tomorrow's teachers' day. somehow as you grow older all that hype about presents for teachers jes fade away into oblivion. i'm not even going back to my alma mater to visit them, because i already did so on founder's day. hurhur going out with bertieiggy tommorow, then it's time to finish up that stupid essay for ms tan. lucks to me man, gotta finish it before i leave for bkk.

i have this nagging feeling about pw. someone, HELP.

2005-08-28T08:07:00.000-07:00

had a pre-birthday celebration for hwee today before i leave for bangkok and the only time when i can celebrate her birthday is after i come back then it'll be belated. it was kwite cool because she didnt know about it at all, mom and i bought the cake yesterday and put it in the fridge in church. then after service we lighted all the candles and started singing the birthday song after coming out from the kitchen. hwei was like 'huh who's birthday is it?' LOL. well i hoped you liked it/were pleasantly surprised my darling hweehwee <3<3

right, now i have nothing to look forward to except wednesday and thurday. oh not forgetting the essays i have to complete before i leave.

SIGH.